I wasn’t prepared for this. How often I have seen those words or even said them myself since becoming a parent. I wasn’t prepared for this. Often that phrase is used in describing things like lack of sleep, endless laundry, cooking dinner with one on a hip and one grabbing your ankle, showering at 8:35 pm because they are finally off to slumber….
All of that is real, and exhausting but I have found just over the past year, there is something much deeper that I wasn’t prepared for.
You don’t see a lot of blogs about it because to be quite honest, it’s not an easy read. There aren’t 3 easy steps or Pinterest pins to frame the words that just flowed from a weary heart.
I wasn’t prepared to love this much. The knot in the throat kind of love. To see absolute greatness in the innocent eyes that trust you completely yet also see little shoulders that slump. Lips that quiver. Voices that soften to a whisper to share what their tiny heart is screaming.
Some have called it tough love. It’s tough because we realize these little people are learning life by doing. How I would love to make each day of my kids lives be rainbows and unicorns, but they are walking the path that we all are walking. They have seasons where their feet are unsteady. It would be so easy for me to reach out, scoop them up in my arms, and say “let me do that”.
But we let them walk….this walk called childhood. They laugh. They cry. They get scared. They squeal with delight. They make mistakes. They excel. They love. They get angry. They forgive. They snuggle close. They play.
Then when they lay their head on their pillow to rest, we scoop them up in our arms. We pray words of life and purpose and potential and kindness over them. We ask the angels to protect them. We whisper that they are perfect and exactly what God designed them to be.
I wasn’t prepared for this but I was hand picked by the Great Creator for this. To be this mom to these wee ones. In this moment.
You were hand picked, my friend. If life is swallowing you up right now, bills are piling, teens are giving the silent treatment, or babies are up all night….always remember this. You may not feel adequately prepared but take great assurance that you are loved, and watched and followed closely by our Heavenly Father who is letting you walk it out.
Tonight, when all is quiet and you lay your head on your pillow to rest, I hope you hear His whisper that says “you are perfect and exactly what I designed you to be.”
Zephaniah 3:17 The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing.