For today’s thought, I really don’t have much to say except for a poem I wrote awhile back. As some of my friends know, I have had to deal with infertility for 13 years now. Sometimes, I feel as if I am a newlywed again, just anticipating my next few years with little ones in our family picture.
People have often said that I have “handled this wellâ€, and for the most part, I think I have. Yes, there are times of tears, but I really do have His peace most of all.
You see, I don’t know where my road would have turned, what hills or valleys I would have gone through, had things been different. But I do know that His ways are higher that mine. His strength is perfect. His love is immeasurable. His wounds were for my pain. He keeps my tears in a bottle. For that I am grateful. For that I can smile today.
If you are feeling disappointment or hurt, just know that He loves you more than you can ever know. You are not alone. He’s been there……
To Heal
You say that you are doing fine,
It doesn’t really matter.
You laugh and smile, yet all the while
You watch your dreams begin to shatter.
Eight years old, so long ago
Back then you had no doubt.
That a Little One would call you Mommy
And make you laugh out loud.
“How did this happen, what is wrong?â€
“Can you fix this, Jesus, please!?â€
You struggle just to say the words
As you pray on bended knees…
But somehow deep inside you know,
You hear Him gently speak.
You feel His tears, for He cries when you cry
He’s your strength when your heart is weak.
We may not know the reasons for
This emptiness that you feel…..
But Jesus does, for He knows what it’s like
To be broken… and then…. to heal….
rmccoy 6/16/05
(especially dedicated to those with a mothers heart and empty arms) |